Having a parent with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)

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The legacy of having a BPD parent - Mark Ettensohn, Psy. Sacramento therapistTreatments such as Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT) have brought renewed interest in Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and, indeed, personality disorders in general. There is greater public awareness of these complex mental health issues and considerably less stigma surrounding a diagnosis of BPD than in decades past.

However, less attention has been given to understanding and treating adult children of BPD parents, many of whom struggle with depression, anxiety, and even post-traumatic stress.

Key Features of BPD:

People with Borderline Personality Disorder experience significant emotional disturbance that revolves around an unstable self-image and deeply held fears of abandonment. They struggle with emotional regulation and may have unpredictable outbursts that can cause distress for those around them. They may also engage in self-harming behaviors such as cutting/burning themselves or threatening to commit suicide. BPD is a chronic issue that is often associated with substance abuse, depression, anxiety, and complex trauma. To learn more about BPD, see this article: Understanding Borderline Personality Disorder.

Children of BPD Parents:

People with BPD often rely on those around them to help maintain a stable sense of self. This places considerable demands on loved ones, who come to dread being blamed for the person’s bad mood, recent work disappointment, or fluctuating body image. While such relational demands can be difficult for adults, they are frequently overwhelming for children, who require caregiving that is both stable and consistent. Perhaps most importantly, children need to internalize a sense of self that is basically good and deserving of love, care, and attention. This sense comes directly from caregivers, and it becomes the bedrock on which a child’s future emotional and mental well-being are built. When caregivers are preoccupied with maintaining their own internal equilibrium, they are unable to provide the emotional sustenance that their children require.

Dr. Cynthia Neuman (2012) writes more on the developmental and relational dilemmas faced by children of BPD parents:

…mothers with BPD struggle to stay afloat. They cling to whoever is near, and they pull their children into their blackness. Mothers with several children may perceive one child as all-good and another as no-good, as they project the contradictory feelings that they have about themselves onto different children. The mother’s differing presentations cause the child to become anxious, confused, fearful, and untrusting, as she is never sure what to expect. Thus, she grows up believing other people are inconsistent and not to be trusted. Trapped in a world that others cannot see or understand, the child of a severely disturbed borderline mother comes to feel hopelessly lost….The borderline mother’s fear of abandonment and her tendency to experience separation as rejection lock her and her children in a struggle for survival. Children must separate to survive, but separation threatens the mother’s survival. Regardless of how outrageous the mother’s perspective may be, she may punish or vilify her children for disagreeing…. Shame extinguishes the child’s sense of entitlement and can trigger self-destructive fantasies…. Without structure and predictability. children have no reality base upon which to build self-esteem and security.

For many children growing up with a BPD parent, necessities like care and positive regard are commodities that appear on an unpredictable schedule – based not on the child’s behavior but on the parent’s internal state of being. As a result, children of BPD parents tend to grow up feeling mistrustful of others. They have trouble with intimacy because they are constantly fearful that the other person will unpredictably turn on them. They may become very good at reading other people’s feelings and attempting to predict what they want. Simultaneously, they are often clueless as to their own wants and feelings.

Children of BPD parents tend to struggle with feelings of shame, because their normal and developmentally appropriate needs for attention and positive mirroring may have been abused by the caregiver’s jealousy or the caregiver’s own shame. Such children learn early that their main job is to reflect the caregiver positively in order to avoid unbearably painful abandonment and retaliation. When the BPD caregiver lashes out, he or she may later rewrite history and deny any wrong-doing in the first place. This is due to a psychological defense called “splitting,” which causes people with BPD to see themselves and the world as either all good or all bad. Children must learn to adapt to their caregiver’s use of splitting and may find it difficult to trust their own sense of past events. They may come to feel that they are not entitled to feelings of anger and may be very fearful of attempting to hold others accountable for their actions.

Children of BPD parents often develop very strong feelings of guilt and of personal responsibility for the actions and feelings of others. This is due to the BPD caregiver’s continual need to blame others for his/her feelings and actions. BPD individuals often have something called an external locus of control, which means that they tend to see their lives as out of control and their own thoughts, feelings, and behaviors as depending on external factors. When a person with untreated BPD flies into a rage or threatens self-harm, he or she will often place blame on others for those actions. This becomes very confusing for children, who require caregivers to model personal responsibility and to teach healthy interpersonal and emotional boundaries.

Mason and Kreger (2010, as cited in Neuman 2012) list six issues frequently associated with BPD parenting:

  1. Difficulty separating relationships with their children from problems with others – BPD parents may not be able to allow their children to have positive relationships with people that the BPD parents dislikes (such as between separated parents).
  2. Inconsistent parenting – BPD parents may treat their children in inconsistent ways (i.e. over-involvement vs. neglect)
  3. Unpredictable love – BPD parents may have difficulty providing children with a consistent feeling of being loved.
  4. Feeling threatened by a child’s normal behavior – BPD parents may have difficulty allowing children to be angry with them without retaliating, or allowing their children to indivuate without feeling abandoned.
  5. Inability to love unconditionally – BPD parents may withdraw love when their children do not obey, or when their children express anger or disappointment with them.
  6. Feeling threatened by a child’s feelings and opinions – BPD parents may defend their fragile sense of self by punishing their children for expressing thoughts, feelings, and opinions that they do not like.

If you feel that you were raised by a parent with BPD, then talking to a therapist can be very helpful in the process of recovery. Adult children of BPD parents must learn to trust others, to develop a more stable positive sense of self, and to learn appropriate interpersonal boundaries. These lessons are best learned within the context of a healing relationship with a trained professional.

If you have been diagnosed with BPD and worry about the effects your illness may have on your children, the best course of action is to seek therapy. Untreated BPD can be very destructive to all parties involved. But with treatment, it is possible to learn new ways of coping and new ways of relating to loved ones.

Works Cited –

Neuman, C.T. (2012). Impact of Borderline Personality Disorder on parenting: Implications for child custody and visitation recommendations. Journal of Child Custody, 9, 233-249.


The role of the therapist is to reflect the being/accepting self that was never allowed to be in the borderline.”

― Michael Adzema


  1. Karen Dever
    July 11, 2016

    I am curious about how to deal with my niece who has bpd. She has a 3 year old son who is currently living with his grandmother. Every time my niece gets upset ahe threatens to get her rights back. My nephew already has huge tantrums and will pinch, hit, and kick when he is mad. Would it be a good idea to get him in therapy now. I worry that he will end up with bpd as well. What can we do to help him deal with his mom and her issues so they don’t effect him too much. Thanks so much.

    • raindrop
      November 24, 2017

      Play therapy might help. However tantrums are normal for that age, though not ones of that severity. Good parenting strategies should help, and a high level of consistency, stability and unconditional love should at least help a little in the healing of his early attachment issues. It’s good they got him away so early.

    • Genn
      December 26, 2017

      I found something that has been really effective for my daughter. Hand in Hand parenting. it might work – the idea is that you be very present with them while he is throwing their tantrums with boundaries (he can’t hurt you physically but can hit a pillow or the floor). With a Borderline parent, he has not been allowed to have real emotions in a safe space. He doesn’t know how to express them without freaking out probably. Also, putting him in the bathtub is really helpful. It was amazing, actually. He really needs to see that his needs are just as important as everyone elses’. Don’t hesitate to tell him you understand that he is hurting and angry and it is ok to be angry. And then tell him that there are safe ways to express himself. He will understand, but he probably has some pretty deeply ingrained ways of dealing with anger and fear already. I am really glad to hear you are involved. It will make all the difference for him.

  2. Bianca
    September 20, 2016

    I’m a parent of an adult child who suffers from BPD, she’s a cutter, post partum depression dx and possibly bipolar. Alcohol and drugs are a problem but I do not know the severity of it. She’s attempted suicide atleast once. I’v been raising her daughter for the past 7 Months (9 months old) but do not have any legal means to keep my daughter from taking her daughter.

    I’m concerned about what will happen to her daughter of she removes her from my home. I fear if I take legal actions for custody of my granddaughter and that i would cause my daughter to commit suicide.

  3. Jill
    September 23, 2016

    Dr. Etterson, The lightbulb went off for me in my late 40’s when my lack of boundary-setting was getting me over-involved and over-responsible in my personal, spiritual, and work spheres of life. There were patterns that I finally saw and realized that I could keep blaming, as I was taught by my BPD parent, or take my part of the personal responsibility for the wreckage and set goals for wholeness and integrity. Five years later, with the help of counseling, reading, and forging healthier relationships – my life is now mine. With my BPD parent, I learned that the “locus of control” wasn’t mine to possess. Initially taking full responsibility for my decisions was frightening because I didn’t trust myself to make thoughtful, loving and firm decisions. All of those self doubts, mistrust of my feelings was a hard won battle because my childhood ingrained those beliefs in my heart and mind. By God’s grace, I’m on the other side. Articles like yours help me to continue the process of recovery. Thank you for helping me regain what I believe to be lost.

    • sarah
      December 8, 2017

      Thanks..a hope giving comment for me to read.im 36 and struggling big time on the journey of recovery from emotional abuse during childhood and in marriage. My mother and ex husband i believe are bpd. Now divorced and iv had help like u with reading and counselling. Problem is, i dont want to spend time with them right now and they say they do. They also say im unfair for not letting them see my 5yr old precious daughter whom i dont want exposed to their dysfunction and potential harmful impact on her I do feel guilty but at the end of the day it must be false guilt.
      So im wandering how u manage to either not have or to have contact with ur family?? Im finding it hard to move forward whilst im dealing with them wanting to see my daughter and claiming rights to doing so.

      • Frankie
        December 11, 2017

        Oh I feel your pain. I have 4 children, and I only recently began to suspect my mother has BPD. She has always been eccentric and a bit erratic. She doesn’t have all of the symptoms. She is actually a very compassionate person, very giving, but very volatile. She is unpredictable and wreckless (especially behind the wheel). Because of her tendency to dissociate she was also quite inattentive. She also enables and protects dangerous men—sexual predators and violent men, substance abusers. She “helps” them. I began to fear for my kids safety in her hands. I wanted to protect my kids from the dysfunction and eliminate the exposure to these people. I began distancing myself—cue her frantic and desperate sense of rejection! I didn’t want to cut her off completely, I just wanted some space and some healthy boundaries. This triggered a massive year long guilt trip. So I gave in and went back—and sure enough, one of the men in her life wasted no time and harmed one of my children. I was exposed to a lot of substance abuse and sexual abuse. Things I grew up thinking were normal. Meanwhile, I developed agoraphobia in middle school and PTSD in adulthood. My anxieties were a nuisance and a joke and I was never taken seriously. But now that I am recognizing her symptoms, I see things differently. I have struggled for over a year with guilt and shame, and boy does she make sure I don’t have a second of feeling otherwise. She won’t listen to reason—the splitting is intense with her. She calls me hateful and says I’m loving being hateful and that I’m isolating her by keeping my distance. I’ve offered repeatedly to let her see the kids but she cancels, I suppose expecting me to beg. But I am protecting my kids by setting boundaries and sticking to them and I’ve finally learned (well…somewhat) that I’m not wrong for doing so. I do struggle with guilt and I feel sorry for her. It is a constant struggle honestly. But it is too much…

      • Brandi
        December 13, 2017

        I’m a 34 year old mother to 2 young boys. My own mother shows all the signs of BPD. I’ve been in therapy for 4+ years to help me deal with all the problems. And I’ve finally grown strong enough to set boundaries for my mom.
        Your mom may want to see your daughter, but you are allowed to set boundaries for that. And if that means she (your mom) doesn’t get to see your daughter, that is ok. You don’t owe your mom any time with your daughter, no matter what. My mom tried to guilt me, tried to threaten me, threatened to harm herself, was verbally abusive to other family members because of the boundaries I set. I tried to explain her actions weren’t helping, but she turned it around and claimed I don’t love her, and I’m stealing her grandchildren from her. So now it’s to the point where if she does not seek mental health care, my family and I will not be around her. I am protecting my children and myself from being hurt by her. It’s scary at first, but you can do it. You’re way stronger than you realize, I’m sure of that.
        Regarding your ex husband, I have no advice on that, because I’ve never been through it. But know your legal rights, regarding keeping y’all’s daughter from him. Good luck mama. I promise, there’s a light at the end of the tunnel. ❤️

      • Genn
        December 26, 2017

        You are doing the right thing! I completely cut my parents out for almost 4 years while my 3 were babies and toddlers. you don’t owe them a chance to know your children. My dad is very unpredictable, a corrupting personality, and, I believe, worse than that as well. I truly believe that I have protected my children by not allowing him to have an influence on them.
        it is so hard to trust yourself when you have been raised by a Borderline Parent, but protecting your kids will teach you when it is time to block them out.

        • Joanna
          March 1, 2018

          What happened after the 4 years? Did you start seeing them again? Allow your kids to see them? How was that? Was it awkward? Had they changed their behaviors? Thank you for sharing.

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  5. Kyla Ardoin
    January 21, 2017

    This explanation is exactly what I needed today. At 36 years old, with a child myself now, I am letting go and separating myself from my BPD mother. 36 years is a long time to have self-hatred brought on by never being allowed to be happy and never being continuously loved. For years, I have thought I was crazy. Nope. Just a whipping post for my mother. Luckily, my extended family validates that my mom is emotionally abusive. She has “punished” me for the last time for being myself. It’s still heartbreaking because I love her. She is my mother. And there were good times, but the mental anguish is not worth it anymore. I have a son who deserves all the magic and happiness in the world. I am thankful that she has carried a cross of misery so that I know what true happiness is like.

    • Sarah Thompson
      March 8, 2017

      Thank you for your post. It describes my situation exactly. I’m 37 and I have a son. I only just now discovered the reason for everything my mother does. All the time I spent trying to find what was wrong with me, why am I not normal? Well I am normal and simply responding to the dysfunctional parenting I received. I always thought my nontraditional upbringing was cute and quirky. No it was a lie. A play we all acted out to keep things calm. I love her but she is not capable of giving real love to anyone. I feel lucky for the times she just left. I can’t imagine if she was forced to stay… the kind of hell fire it would have unleashed.

      • Mehran Nia
        March 27, 2017

        I am a father two daughters who have a mother with MPD.

        I have left my cooperate world just so that I can take care of my kids half the time and I am still worried to death for them. They are 12 and 15 old girls and I have through reading and understanding trying to make my girls aware that their mother is not well and they have choices. Their choice is to live a life free of drama and negetivity. But my younger daughter is not doing well and I am so worried. She protects her mom regradsless of all the harm she does. Any thoughts for someone who has gone through this?

      • Frankie
        December 11, 2017

        Oh my G—I can’t believe how much I am relating to other people. I always thought something was wrong with me. I’ve only recently began to suspect my mother has BPD, but reading these stories from others (who also are incidentally around my age, 38), I find myself going, oh yep, that that and OMG THAT! Same here—I too thought my upbringing was quirky and cute. My mom remarried 25 years ago and has persistently enabled my drug addicted dad all along. Constantly giving him money and driving him here and there. He even lived with them (mom and stepdad & younger brothers) off and on. My friends used to ask about it and it was just never weird to me. I never had any structure or expectations, there were no boundaries (though I put up pretty strong ones early on), I dropped out of school and it was just *shrug*. I just had a different life than them, I thought. It wasn’t until recently that I started to recognize the dysfunction, and that I had always been emotionally stifled. I had endured sexual abuse. I was subjected to emotional and physical abuse. But I didn’t recognize it, growing up I would explain it casually to my dumbfounded friends, who now admit to me they always thought i was growing up under very unhealthy circumstances. I feel so very guilty saying that. My mom can be such a sweet loving well meaning person, but she really does place the responsibility of her happiness onto me and it’s too much.

  6. Aatam
    March 12, 2017

    Omg wow at 29 throught therapy and i learned of this and like
    The two commentetors above omg wowowowowowowowow?!

    Its like i found the missing lines but i always knew the dots and now i feel complete i grew up with a single mother with bpd and all i have left to say is wow im so glad i learned this at 29 through therapy.

    • Angela
      November 27, 2018

      I have this page bookmarked to come back to whenever my mother is acting particularly crazy with me. I can’t stand her and sometimes wish she would just die already (I feel so guilty for feeling that way but she is an awful person, she never loved any of us – she’s incapable of feeling anything but love for herself). She tells everyone all of her kids are ungrateful and she was this great mother but she spent our whole childhoods chasing men, drinking, neglecting us, making us responsible for her (and still does). She’s so angry and unpredictable. I feel like she has ruined my life and she still gets a kick of it. She just waits until I feel better and my life is nice and calm and then starts up again with her crazy making. She’s going to live forever. Oh, and now also I have invisible ink on my forehead that tells people with Borderline Personality Disorder to come find me and torture me at work and in my personal life. So now I have intimacy issues and just want to be left alone because I attract crazy. I’m a nurse and I feel like my job in life has just been to take care of others, starting with my crazy unpleasant mother, Lordy!

  7. Ella Linwood
    April 1, 2017

    My sister’s and I found this article very helpful and insightful. Ages 26, 23, 19. I am the middle and the (Good child) My little sister’s words were “We’re not alone.” Thankfully we have grown up assuring each other that we are not crazy, but this article made it perfectly clear. We have a mother who is undiagnosed, and just functioning enough to be perceived as normal to the outside world. I myself moved states away to gain some clarity and I am doing better now. I have been successful in establishing some boundaries, but I would like further possible tools in dealing with a mother who would never admit to having a problem let alone a diagnosis of any kind. My sister’s and I are pretty well versed in behavioral therapy.(I would discuss that further over email) Is there a way to coexist? Is there a way to react to her outbursts that has proven effective? Please email me whenever you have time. I think you would find our particular case interesting. 3 Girls who reacted differently to the situation. Also, if you have anyone to recommend to us who is well versed in this in MN I would be very interested in contacting them.

    Thank you

    • kevin
      December 28, 2017

      i am one of three brothers. i am the youngest and was the favorite. this article and comments resonates with me so much. our mother raged at us at all times and at all hours of the day and night. called us names if we ever disagreed with her awful depictions of people we loved, such as our father, whom she was divorced from. we each came out different. each with distinct traits of our own which are responses and defense mechanisms to her rage and splitting. neither brother has s relationship with her. she manages to cloak her bpd professionally by cecoming a litigator. most people just thought she was angry and passionate for her clients. except she would never settle a case. she could never concede a thing and could never hear another’s point of view once she was locked in to her black and white narrative that she manufactured. i speak with her some but am about to have no contact. she was good at keeping it away from me but all it takes is one episode and she is off to the races- raging and enlisting everyone possible in her distorted perceptions. she is incapable of seeing moderation. she only sees and acts in extremes. and when she has some cause to promote. she never stops. she will eviscerate the person whom she has targeted. and she will demean those who disagree with her. anything less than 100 percent support of her anger, and her righteousness is met with vilifying you. disagreeing is not an option. i think her life blood is conflict. where it doesn’t exist, she will create it. almost as of she needs it to live. almost as if she can only identify herself by labeling another person as bad and evil. i spent so much of my life trying to understand the nuances of her rage behaviour. i tried to temper fix and understand the accusations and destruction. i naively believed that nobody could feel so much without some truth to the feelings and stories. but i’m realizing and have come to realise that it’s all a product of her bpd. the extremism is awful. and it’s not mine to fix. it’s my role to stay away from that behaviour. over the years she has lost every son, friend, professional colleague and others. the only people in her life are those she pays, such as her maid whom she has an odd relationship with and encourages to sleep over. also she has a contractor and she is constantly doing work on her house. these are her sole outlets. i have a 6 year old who she knows. she is having an episode now and i am inclined to remove him from her life. though she seems to be good with little kids, something feels wrong exposing them to someone who i know will engage in toxic behavior sooner or later. and something seems inconsistent about someone who rages against a parent being rewarded by being with that persons young child.
      well. that the first time i’ve ever posted anything in a forum. never felt so comforted as i do (though it’s Unfortunate) by others who have walked in my shoes. after decades of qualifying and rationalizing the most irrational behavior ever, I now feel comfortable calling it by its name. and i feel comfortable allowing myself to heal. thank you all for your posts. each one is an elixir of insight and validation.

  8. Marta Deangelis
    April 14, 2017

    I was raised by a beautiful, but I am sure borderline mother. I am 65 now and I felt guilty that I felt relief when she died. She favored my brother, who now at age 60 is schizophrenic and lives on the streets. I copied my dad, throughout my life,became an RN. I married a borderline man at age 19 to get away from her. When I grew up, there was no borderline diagnosis. My father had his doctorate in microbiology and I modeled myself after him, not her. He, I feel, knew something was wrong with her, but just coped, like me. But she was harming me. There are no baby pics of my mother holding me, only my dad seemed to take care of me. Her words were devastating to me, as I grew, and I didn’t know why she was like she was. She seemed not to like anything about me and I never felt loved .When I met my future husband, he blurted out to me that he had been molested by his 17 yr. Old brother at age 7. Little did myself or anyone know how this would affect him. It was an abusive marriage( on his part) for 23 yrs., When I finally understood what was wrong with him. He would not stay in treatment at age 30, our marriage was a , his hurricane of him suddenly hating me and leaving me, abusing me instead of confronting his abuser., and crying to me,,about his abuse when he would return home after his affairs, his continuous use of drugs. , His quitting, or getting fired numerous jobs, etc. Finally, I left after being called fat, ugly and stupid every other day. I believed him for a while even when I was away from him, but with therapy I realized that I was NONE of the the things he said. But now I see how my children were damaged. Oldest son has been in trouble since about age 20, has 4 children that their mothers have raised. I at age, 55, with a new, loving husband, adopted my son’s son at birth. At least, he is being raised in a good environment. My daughter , is also a RN, has a 2 unstable relationships with men like her dad, but began to understand what was wrong with her dad and her boyfriends, she is married to a very stable man. My youngest son married a borderline personality, at age 19because she was pregnant. He finally divorced her, bot he allows her to still be entwined with his life and I can see how it is affecting his young daughter’s, but he refuses to believe what is wrong with her,still loves her., Even though he knows he was raised by a God himself and can set boundaries with his father now, but not her. I finally realized what caused my mother to be like she was, when at age 80, she blurted out that ‘ my uncle molested me and they sent ME away.’ Living and coping with BPD is awful, so tiring, and they cannot get well without long periods of intense therapy which they don’t think they need or even want to do. They destroy and upset so many people with their words and actions!

  9. Diane
    August 22, 2017

    My partner’s ex is diagnosed with BPD although she refuses to admit it and blames everyone else in the world for being crazy. He has twins with her and I sometimes struggle to understand why they behave the way they do. Could someone please shed some light on this?

    Yes they have the characteristic lack of trust, lack of self worth, failing in school, lack of hygiene and feelings of guilt associated with BPD. When they are with us, they see how a normal relationship functions and I can see them reflecting on why it is so turbulent at home. The last time they saw their mother in a violent rage with us, they said they couldn’t believe it because she is always so lovely! They go home and within days it is back to mother is queen. They know what she says and does is wrong, I can see it in their eyes but they do not believe it and always defend her. They make excuses for her behaviour and lie to us openly about events that we know have happened. What I do not understand is, if there life is so rotten with her and things are as a bad as they are made out, then why do they constantly defend and protect her making us be the bad people constantly?

    • StephanieS
      December 2, 2017

      Because she’s their mother. That’s why. It is VERY SCARY to stand up to a BPD as an ADULT. It’s not something a child can even fathom doing. Their mother has made herself The Big Kahuna. She made the rules and they better agree with her or face consequences. You don’t know what that mother is doing to them when you are not around. It is an EXTREME form of emotional abuse. I am 46 and was only able to cut off contact from my mother two years ago. It took me SO long just to understand what was going on. I knew our family was not normal, but I didn’t have a “reason” or a name for it. It seemed like my mother enjoyed the constant chaos, the drama, the yelling, screaming, hair-pulling, face-slapping, shoving, punching, beatings. It is VERY FUCKING SCARY having a parent like that. I recommend your partner does the right thing and tries to get full custody. If he cares about his children’s well-being, he should. The mother will fight this tooth and nail, of course, but if you want to prevent these girls from becoming BPD themselves, it is extremely important.

      I hope this helps with understanding. An email from my mother can still send me into a shame spiral. Abusers don’t stop abusing. They simply change tactics. This woman will manipulate and control her children as long as she is alive.

      • Frankie
        December 11, 2017

        Oh my god I’m so glad I found this page. I want to reach out to all of you. It is just so validating to find people who’ve had these experiences. I have been wracked with self-doubt and shame and guilt. I’ve tried to establish boundaries. Every time my mother texts me I too experience the shame and guilt and doubt. It’s a cycle too, for the last year, roughly every other week or so. It starts with, I love you and miss you, then she begs to see me and my kids, I agree to it, then she cancels, and when I don’t beg her to come over, she starts telling me how hateful i am and how I have broken her heart and how her misery is all my fault. It triggers awful anxiety, nightmares, insomnia, I even find myself dissociating from time to time. I am trying to find a support group for adult children of BPD parents.

      • Frankie
        December 11, 2017

        Ah I didn’t finish before I hit send. So the doubt—I’m constantly doubting I’m right about her being incapable of having healthy relationships and start questioning myself. She calls me a mean hateful bitch, and I start asking my husband, maybe she’s right…am I wrong? Am I the one who is being cruel? Am I a mean hateful bitch? It’s such an awful feeling to have someone constantly tell you you’ve wronged them when you haven’t, but it really makes you feel as though you have. :'(

  10. Sarah
    September 30, 2017

    Like so many of these posts, I, too, have a BPD mother–never diagnosed, but meets all the criteria–and now at age 96 still displays BPD! As her adult child/daughter, now 60, I’ve had to engage in very limited contact with her for the past few years. I don’t live around her for a good reason, but phone calls from her can still be very distressing. While I do long for a ‘mother,’ I know it is not her, and will never be her. While I’ve tried many times over the years, to ‘be nice,’ and communicate, and visit her, it always results in an episode of criticism, against me, and/or my husband (who she called ‘he’ for many years). Nothing is ever good enough. It’s always about her—her needs, and her aches and pains. But looking back, it’s been like this my whole life. I know what loving mothering looks, and feels like, and it’s not her. So, I meditate, work on self-compassion, compassion for others-that includes her. But at the same time, I am in an ongoing state of recovery so I have to protect myself. If this is any indication of who she is–she just sent me a birthday card. She did not write my name in it. She signed it “Love, your Mother” with a note on the side about how she called me several times and left messages, I have not returned her calls, and that she doesn’t feel well. Anyways, like all of you, I’ve experienced lifelong, and ongoing grief, as well as the loss of never having a loving, unconditional parent. Most importantly, I’ve had to teach myself how to love myself unconditionally…work in progress. Peace to all.

    • Frankie
      December 11, 2017

      I have panic attacks every time my mom texts or calls me. I felt so guilty about it but now I understand it entirely. I’m so very glad to have found this page. It is sad and heartbreaking but reassuring to know we are not alone. Hugs to everyone.

      • Zambra
        February 25, 2018

        I understand you so well, that’s exactly how I feel every time I get a text or a call from her. My stomach turns and I wish she hadn’t contacted me. It’s all about her, her past experiences, her pain, her feelings. The people around her do not feel anything, apparently. It’s so destructive.

        • Joanna
          March 1, 2018

          This is so true for me too! I’m 39, have two young children, and anytime I get a text, email or voicemail from my mother it sends me into major anxiety mode, shaking and upset stomach, instantly. I am considering blocking her from contacting me, but scared of what that would do, or enrage in her. Also, my father and brother don’t seem to see or understand or feel the same way about her inappropriate, emotionally abusive behaviors that I do. I feel like I’m in the Twilight Zone. Like doesn’t anyone else see what’s going on here!? Don’t you see this is NOT normal!? I personally feel all I can do is cut contact with her, but feel that’s not fair to come in between my parents relationships with their grandchildren, they are very close. But I don’t know how to handle that, I don’t want them to be alone with her or ever experience her irradiated behavior. However, I feel it’s just targeted at me specifically.

  11. Me
    October 4, 2017

    My father has BPD. He did, indeed try to make others feel responsible for his problems. A lot of spouses of those with untreated/unmanaged BPD stay with their spouse but please don’t, especially if kids are involved. Document, leave, and take the kids with you.

    It doesn’t matter how good the person with BPD are when they are good. It doesn’t negate abusive or neglectful behaviors towards the kids.

    Sometimes the most beautiful things in nature are also the most deadly.

  12. Domina
    October 29, 2017

    It was a psychotherapist I went to see many years ago, for being suicidal with severe depression, who said I didn’t need psychotherapy as it would be damaging to me and pointed me to a lot of information, regarding my description of my dad, as personality disorder and emotional personality disorder. Through other knowledge and knowing someone else a while ago with both, he is also typical of Gender Dysphoria too, having dressed as a woman and tried to deny he liked it. He is also a sexist, woman-hating, woman-bashing pig who has treated my mam and me like a slave (growing up), my little sister tells him off but has so much destructive anger in her. My three younger brothers, (the two oldest), have been subjected to his lies, manipulation, conditonal love and a life crash course on woman-hating so now the two oldest in their mid twenties are abusers with severe aggression and mental health issues.
    Luckily as I’m just over 30 my mam and I have been able to save a good chunk of my youngest brother who at 19 is severely depressed but is gentlemanly, caring and protective towards women and girls getting hurt.
    When I was younger my dad lied constantly like he still does, manipulates his family against each other and plays everyone like pawns in his twisted game of sides and attention-seeking as well as how “everyone hurts him” when it’s the other way round. He even punched and strangled me as a child as well as constant emotional and psychological abuse where I grew up constantly suicidal. He still refuses to this day that there is anything wrong with him and still emotionally abuses and tries to control, even though my mam has just told him she wants a divorce after 33 years of his abuse.
    My point has been to say how destructive these people are and their selfishness knows no limits. Do not waste your love on them because underneath it means nothing to them and you are just a pawn in a game!
    Good Luck..

    • te
      November 7, 2018

      I’ve never heard of people with gender dysphoria being abusive, it sounds like your dad was just a hateful crossdresser and homophobe, those do exist independently of transgender folks. Sorry that you went through this.

  13. Ngaio Hanlon
    February 23, 2018

    I have a lot of empathy for the suffering of the people on this site. However I don’t support the discriminatory attitude some of them express towards people with BPD.
    These comments further society’s discrimination and prejudice against people with BPD which makes it much less likely they can gain insight and access help before the damage to their children is set. They want to have good family relationships and to have a kind loving effect on their children just as much as the people on this site do.

    • Reader
      March 6, 2018

      I don’t hear any discrimination about people with BPD. I hear anger towards specific people only, and specifically towards their behavior, not their disease.

    • Me
      April 4, 2018


      One of my issues with many people with BPD is they try to derail support venue for victims of people with BPD and make it a support venues for themselves. That is an inappropriate thing to do. I find that one of the primary manifestations of BPD is a profound disrespect for boundaries. Parent-child boundaries, friendship boundaries, other interpersonal boundaries, legal boundaries, ethical boundaries, moral boundaries. And the justification seems to be a sense of entitlement of emotional precedent. The person would BPD seems to feel that they are the most emotionally needy person in the room, therefore their emotional needs should be served above everyone else’s. No, you don’t always get to take. You must leave spaces for other people in this society. I have an Autism Spectrum Disorder. There are sites out there for relatives and loved ones of those with autism spectrum disorders and some of the people post very nasty negative things about those on the spectrum. Sometimes I even feel they mischaracterize people on the spectrum as a whole to the point of libel. But I do not intrude upon those spaces. I do not go there and demand empathy for people on the spectrum or claim that it is wrong for them to talk about their experiences and suppress their own emotional need for the benefit of those on the spectrum. Those spaces aren’t for me to seek support. In fact the spaces aren’t for me at all. At best, for me, they are just places where I can learn the perspectives of the other side, take notes, and try to improve myself.

      So take notes here if you want and try to improve yourself, but this space is not for you or others with BPD. You need to let others have a turn at having some emotional support.

      • Lou
        September 9, 2018

        Dear me,
        Excellent and extremely pertinent post. I couldn’t agree more. You are refreshing!

      • te
        November 7, 2018

        This is an excellent comment articulated wonderfully, thank you for posting it.
        It’s unimaginably frustrating when people with BPD have to occupy the space of victim-seeking-support at all times, especially when they re-enact the abuse they have suffered onto innocent parties.

      • Groundhog's Day
        November 13, 2018

        Me – Thank you for writing this; you are so right! I’d also like to add that those of us who grew up with a parent who has BPD have a lot of justifiable rage to work through and what makes it extra challenging is that it typically isn’t “behind” us because the abuse continues well into adulthood, if you still have contact with your BPD parent(s), and even if you have NC, they can malign you to others, driving wedges between you and other family members. That may be offensive to those who are battling with BPD themselves, but we are deeply wounded at the hands of the person/people who we were supposed to trust the most during a time when we were most vulnerable and too young to have the choice to remove ourselves from the abuse. It would be much easier to worry about and be empathetic to the BPD friend’s perspective rather than parent, for example, because my BPD friend is not responsible to have cared for me and teach me that I am a worthy human who is worthy of love. We are like a dog being kicked by it’s master and then the master is angry when we don’t come back to them to be comforted. So, it is not as easy for us adult children to default to empathy and understanding for BPD suffering parents; it’s far too personal. For me, I feel like I am being virtually killed – I am having to protect the essence of who I truly am from complete anhilation, from my Mother. If I were to allow it I would be completely taken over and consumed by her. We were robbed our childhoods and taught that our true individual selves are offensive and wrong. Is my BPD Mother suffering and does she matter? Yes – absolutely. Does it help her or me to let her continue to treat me badly so that her feelings don’t get hurt by the truth? No. My Mother is in the middle of the ocean drowning, and she wants me to come in and save her, but the reality is that I can’t save her and if I jump in after her, she will hold my head under the water and use me as a life-raft and I will drown with her. The amount of damage that is done is considerable and really doesn’t stop even when entering adulthood. The best we can do is find support, grow personally finding therapy to help de-program ourselves from the gaslighting we endured, and have airtight boundries with those we love with BPD who seem incapable of refraining from hurting us. Yes – we believe you hurt, but like ‘Me’ added, we have a right to our feelings and pain too and we have never been able to have a voice for our feelings without being punished in some way. Is my Mom hurting me because she’s in pain? Likely, but that doesn’t mean that she gets to or that I have to have empathy for her hurting me. A normal reaction to someone hurting you is to have some anger; even in these forums you see people with BPD lurking to tell other people how they should/should not be feeling. Guess what, if you punch someone in the face, their first thought is going to be to protect themselves or punch back – they aren’t going to say “wow, you must be in so much pain because you’re punching my face. I’m just going to let you keep punching me so you don’t feel personally attacked because your feelings are clearly more important than mine and my face.”. We’ve walked our entire lives with a person who lives in a magical thinking world in which their feelings are more important than anything else. I have children – if they ever told me I hurt them deeply, I would ask how I hurt them and then I’d stop doing the thing that is hurting them. I wouldn’t blame how I’m hurting them on them…. I wouldn’t get angry for how they feel, tell them they aren’t experiencing what they are, make up stories to other family members to get them on my side and to lash out at my children on my behalf. I wouldn’t talk about my children behind their backs to each other to drive a wedge between them. I wouldn’t call my children hurtful names. I wouldn’t throw my children under the bus to boost my ego. I often wondered how bad things had to get before my Mother would actually offer an appology after doing something hurtful. In my case, I am convinced it would never happen no matter how bad things got. After she recently, impulsively, waived a loaded pistol at myself and two sisters “I want to show you guys what I found!”, I got my answer. Did she feel bad that she was reseckless and could have killed one of her daughters? Nope. She was hurt. We were in the wrong. You see, our having ducked down and yelling to her to stop pointing it at us was hurtful. It implied she wasn’t the perfect loving mother, and this was unacceptable. I wondered if things would have been different had she accidentally shot one of us that day. I truly think the first words out of her mouth would have been, “but I didn’t mean it; it’s not my fault!”. When my son told my Mother she shouldn’t text and drive with him in the car, did she care about my Son’s safety or feelings? Nope. Her feelings were hurt. Why would he feel unsafe with the best grandmother the world has even seen?! How disrespectful to assert himself to his grandmother; she would NEVER have said such a thing to her own parents… She keeps pulling more and more access to myself and her grandchildren away because she hurts us and is proven untrustworthy. It’s her fault. She knows something’s wrong but she refuses to get help and keeps hurting her family and then blaming them for dodging the blows. Does that mean I’m demonizing people who suffer from BPD? No – I’m sharing the truth of how destructive my Mother who has BPD is. Maybe I’m wrong – maybe no one else’s Mother does this. Maybe I’m demonizing BPD sufferers because my Mom is the only one who acts out in this way and it has nothing to do with her having BPD. Does she fully understand what she’s doing? Probably not, but it doesn’t make her less dangerous for me and my children to be around. I don’t jepordize or act carelessly with her life. She doesn’t get to with mine or my children’s no matter how bad she is suffering. All of the BPD sufferers who are here in the spirit of recovery and to learn from others’ stories, I think that’s amazing and I wish you peace and recovery. I wished to God my Mother would do the same. To all of the BPD sufferers on this thread that aren’t here in the spirit of recovery, but are here because you have an axe to grind, no one is going to validate your feelings here; nor do we HAVE to. You are in the wrong thread.

  14. Kira
    May 9, 2018

    I’m so excited to find this very useful source that enlights my entire life. I found out that my father has BPD during my own therapy session yesterday. I got really emotional since then because now I can name it and there are many people suffered from their BPD parents and it is really really unbearable. Thank you all!

  15. A survivor
    June 1, 2018

    Got a threatening letter from my mom I took it to a psychologist who read it & said she thought my mom had BPD. I’ve had 4 yrs. of therapy. My mom was neglectful as from age 9 I had to take care of myself, & my 7 yr. old sister before & after school alone w/no adult around to babysit. We started a fire in 4th grade, mom hid the firemen’s visit to tell on us from dad. I tried cigarettes in 4th grade. My sister got caught shoplifting, stuck in a jail cell until dad picked her up (mom wouldn’t give us any money). I walked in on sister having sex in 8th grade in our room & she got pregnant & miscarried in 10th grade. We smoked pot in the house in high school as no one was home. We made our own meals. Mom wouldn’t make dinner. When we visit her house she’d tell me to bring my own food. She doesn’t cook for us. She hasn’t bought me a birthday present since I was 13. Mom wants everything for her yet she does nothing for me. I have taken care of her during 4 surgeries. I have been respectful to her. She started leaving my family out of her b-day parties only inviting my siblings & their kids hurting the feelings of me & my kids. Last year she hit a teen who was in her way & my daughter & I left to walk away. We told mom we wanted to leave. When we got to mom’s house she was on the phone w/the cops telling them we were still there. I panicked & told my daughter lets go! Mom lied to the cop & told them we locked her up in her room, took her phone, & she was trapped. Well then she lied to my brother & told him I was sorry the next day & cried & apologized to her. This was all a lie! Calling the cops on us was the last straw for us. She just is addicted to the drama. My daughter said she’s never going back to grandma’s house again. I haven’t been back & have cut off contact w/mom. She has threatened to cut me out of her trust. My sister has turned against me & tried to get me kicked out of my family. My brother is the only member I have contact with as he’s nice to me as was my dad. If I hadn’t had a wonderful dad who never left us, who didn’t do anything bad to anyone ever I wouldn’t have turned out so well. I knew something was wrong w/mom. I am the only one who’s had therapy. My brother still caters to mom, lets her babysit his kids which he shouldn’t, but he sets boundaries, & she doesn’t treat him as badly as she does me. I am now the “bad’ child, emotionally disturbed as she told the cop! She’s emotionally disturbed. I don’t want my life consumed by her any longer. I find it hard to make a decision as she undermined all my decisions growing up. I also have anxiety, but I mange it & function well. I find it hard to trust people. I also find it hard to not try to perfect myself. It all came from her. I also am kind, thoughtful, a good mom to my kids & I’ve been present. It’s been a long struggle, but you can reclaim your own identity, sense of self, & trust in your own decision making. I just take longer to make one. That’s OK! Life is too short to have the mean people out to destroy your self esteem. Hang around with the good, kind people in the world & it will be OK.

  16. Jeff
    July 16, 2018

    I thought this article great. I am an adult child of a BPD mother. I was hoping to find some support groups with others who have grown up in the same environment. Does anyone know of a group, preferably in Texas?

  17. Cathy
    September 5, 2018

    I grew up with a mom who has BPD. Everything described in this article and other books I have read validates every feeling I have ever had and the struggles I have endured over the years. My mom was able to hide a lot of her BPD for many years. No one believed me when I begged for help or tried to talk about the emotional abuse I received growing up from living with a mom with BPD. My brother was bipolar and could do no wrong in my mothers eyes. He killed himself when he was 36 and that’s when my mom finally lost touch with reality and showed everyone what BPD is. I finally cut ties with my mother for my own self preservation 5 years ago and although I have severe guilt for abandoning her, I feel that it was crucial to my own survival. I suffer from major depression, anxiety and abandonment issues. I just recently got back into therapy and I’m hoping to overcome some of the emotional damage I suffered as a child and young adult. For anyone that struggles with a toxic BPD person, I’m here to tell you it is OK to say goodbye to that toxic person in your life for your own self preservation. It doesn’t mean you don’t love them. It just means that you love yourself and it’s ok to protect yourself from the abuse.

  18. David Basch
    April 7, 2019

    I understand what everyone is saying here and agree. My daughter is 8, being raised by a mom who has been diagnosed with BPD, although, classically she is in denial. I am trying to fight my daughter’s mom in family court but the court system is very broken. My daughter appears to be mirroring her mom’s behavior. I’m sure she has been verbally, physically and emotionally abused. My custody case has been going on 7 years so far. I put my daughter in therapy at the age of 3 1/2 but my mistake was not putting myself in therapy. I could of definitely used it. The battle continues. Mom loves the drama and has lied to the evaluators and court with her splitting version of reality. The judge has no idea yet of the mom’s toxicity but hopefully will soon.

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  20. Mum K
    June 30, 2019

    I am the mother of a 10yr old Boy with a Father we now know for certain is BPD. Every adult child on here recounting their lives with their BPD Parent is what we have been living through, but worst of all my son. I feel a tremendous amount of guilt because I now realize the situations and events I and he have experienced for his 10yrs has been his Father taking his BPD out on me and him, a child, his own flesh and blood. I had no idea what was going on when he would be out alone with my son. I had this beautiful blue eyed Boy who was funny and loving and carefree and now I have a beautiful blue eyed Boy full of aniexty, fear, worry and a myriad of other emotions he can’t even explain but experiences. The revealing of the BPD came with the disintegration of our Family after being trapped in a 12hr torturous verbal attack where my husband revealed the thoughts he was constantly punishing us by then everything finally made sense. My greatest regret I will every hold was that my son was also in the house that day and heard every vile, splitting word his Father said and it plummeted him into a depression. I have had him in therapy for 3 months but he won’t talk about his Dad.
    His Father keeps trying to tell him/us that he wants his Family he loves his son and then because my Son can’t speak to him, he runs and locks himself away in a bedroom because he can’t trust what is Father will do because everyday for four months now he rages on me. I place boundaries to protect my son, he rages even harder. So now he does nothing, he neglects my son on every level and it’s making things worse for my son because he adored his Father and I don’t know what to do anymore. I try to help my husband understand that his neglect is causing more distress to my son and all he can talk about is himself. If my son can’t for what ever reason be it age or mental distress talk to his therapist how do I help him???? I try to be as consistent and loving as I have always been and he is absolutely my first priority….but it doesn’t seem enough. He talks with me, but how can I truly help him if he won’t talk to the therapist who knows how to actually help? Any suggestions or guidance from all of you who have lived through the life my son is living would be appreciated.

    • Houghton
      May 13, 2020

      Dad needs therapy and treatment, require it in order to continue living together or seperate until complete. This is such a crucial age for your son. Please protect his development. Spend time with healthy people often. Do not enable your spouse to rage at you or your son, this helps no one including your husband. If he threatens to leave, let him. Family Connections is a good resource.

  21. Novella Lee
    July 24, 2019

    I’m 50 and just connected the dots about Mom having BPD. ( poor mom and her only sister were severely sexualy abused by a nieghbor from her earliest memory at 3 and her Mom worked all the time and sent her to live away from her due to the DEPRESSION ERE and my Grandfather being in hospital for medical issues. ) So my Mom has a really sad start. AND THE ABANDOMNMENT AND SEXUAL ABUSE ARE Precursers for BPD. I am diagnosing her even though Im not a psychiatrist. She’s sufferred with depression, alcoholism and nasty fangy mood swings predating my birth as per my Dad. She left my brother me when I was 4 to my Dad who was really quite incapable of raising 2 little children, but he was a very kind hearted well loved , eccentric man with ADHD and OCD and other mental health issues. Fortunately, despite his severe kookyness, he had some very strong character traits like being rock solid as a loving parent. Oddly despite his severe inability to pay bills, consistently provide a safe environment he was still the better parent because he didnt break our spirit and he openly acknowledged his short comings (which is something Mom was incapable of) Dad was able to compensate for the madness of our childhood. I did not get out of childhood without severe anxiety problems, insecurity, uncertainty, trouble standing up for myself and really knowing my own self worth without decades of counseling, self examination and now reading on line about BPD. My Dad’s mental health issues were more easily identifyable , like a person in a wheel chair) you just looked at him and knew he was wacky. But My Mom’s issues were concealable. I get it now though ,my Mom, she a narcasistic at times, She SPLIT my brother and me. I was the bad one and my brother was the Good one! She has always said, she never wanted me. My father was too crazy, and he ruined her life and Im his child. That I act like him . But then she has a mood swing and will say, “I always wanted a daughter, you were the perfect child, everyone wanted you, I had the best baby.” I liked you more than your brother. She really was terribly cruel to do this to my brother and me. She would have mood swings and follow me around in her drunken state, badgering me, “WHY ARE YOU LIKE YOUR FATHER” YOU ARE TOO SENSITIVE, YOU MISUNDERSTAND< YOU TAKE EVERYTHING PERSONALLY, YOU YOU YOU YOU LIE< YOU ONLY BELIEVE IN GOD BECAUSE YOU NEED A CRUTCH, GROW UP, , < MY FAMILY HATED YOUR FATHER"S FAMILY …….BLAH BLAH BLAH! I really began to just have no heart for her. It wasnt until my 30's and after counseling that I really felt safe around her. She seemed to be better from a distance and she was always good at working and making money and she managed always to have a wealthy boyfriend to dote over her because she was attractive I guess. But she didnt do normal things like show up to graduations make birthday parties, do school shopping , take us to doctors, really know our struggles or be someone to confide in. For me she was quite cruel. And the splitting of me and my brother and pitting us against each other was very very heart breaking. She has rejected me and then wants to draw me back in. SHE has come into a lot of money and now she uses that to hold my brother and me on puppet strings. But I have been almost all but removed from the inheritance so she gets very frustrated when I still am kind to her even though she removed me from the inheritance. Her reasons for doing this are unfounded and she loves to point the reasons out to me. But they are so twisted. I AM SO DETATCHED FROM HER GAMES and really do an extraordinary job still being patient and forgiving and loving toward her from a distance, but I am burning out. I dont really love her behavior because she is very sick now and that stress on her causes her to villify me and verbally try to provoke me any chance she can. I cant take her bait and I hjave become an expert at not taking her bait! THAT IS KEY TO MY SANITY WHEN CHATTING WITH HER. SHE SETS UP CATCH 22 situations. So I can get enraged by her. But I dont fall for it. She also plays the victim. She tells me she is about to die and then my brother tells me that the report from the doctor doesnt say that at all. So she tells us different info, just to see if I will kiss her ass for the inheritance. EEEEWWWW and I wont! So thats my story of MOM LOL BPD MOM's are NO FUN. BTW as a child her nick name was Jack from the shining and mommy dearest. ,

  22. Jolleen
    October 10, 2019

    I didn’t really understand my mother’s behavior until I was 20 years old, I am 23 right now. I started therapy at 18 close to 19 years old and it was a strange process to discover that I was not crazy and that she must have BPD ( undiagnosed). I am still in therapy and learning how to set boundaries and I wish I could emotionally detach from her hurtful behavior but it’s hard. For years I am either the best daughter in the world because I did something she asked for if its something I can’t do she will manipulate me and place guilt on me and tell me that I don’t love her or care about her and that she is all by herself in this world. This has in the past forced me to put my life on the back burner and go and help her. My whole life she has always made impulsive decisions with irrational reasoning to justify her choices. Meanwhile being a 4.00GPA student her whole life and becoming an RN Nurse and currently working towards her PHD it just seems like another crutch for her to cry why she can’t do something. She can’t work now because school is so consuming and driving is scary. The biggest thing I have accomplished in my life is separating myself financially from her by the age of 21. She would complain since I was 16 when will i get a job and start paying for my own things, I landed my first job at 18 and 19, graduated HS and started college. When I started to work a second job and kept going to school I was barely home, and then she would lash out on me for not being home and doing chores. The dirty dishes were from her and her boyfriend. I was never home unless I slept or showered. WORK, SCHOOL, GYM, and FRIENDS homes were my life. By 18 her boyfriend broke up with her (she was acting crazy with him so he left) so she packed her shit and moved up north California. She has never been good with money and wanted to rent me an apartment and my Step dad knew that would be the worst thing to ever happen, so he moved into the house and took her spot in the rent. Literally saved my life, because I did not want to move with her, that was my first out. Once I became financially independent, and I mean taking a loan out and buying out my car she “gifted me” ( it had to be expensive so I wouldn’t be able to afford it for a long time, haha I worked so hard and I made it work) that was her trick, thats when life got completely better. After years of therapy that was the last string she could pull, and I could finally say NOOOOOO to her crazy demands. 1. “Take care of my dog for six months, Im too busy with work” 2. “Help me move, you have to or ill take the car back” 3. “You are so ungrateful to me, all I do is for you” 4. “I met a nice guy who is a lawyer and treats me nicely.” ( a month later ex that they have been on and off for 4 years shows up at her door and proposes and she just dumps the other guy…. Then tells me she is getting married in 2 months… Like who the fuck does this shit….Its crazy…

    I know I vented a lot of shit, but these are my examples of how crazy she has been . my whole life, and everyone has to tag along for the ride. About a month ago she asked me to come over to her house she recently moved closer to me 20 min., and she tells me she doesn’t understand why I don’t spend time with her or talk to her, but I hang out with my friends and neighbor who is 50 and my mom is 45 and that she thinks i dont care about her ( she got jealous) . I told her that I would like to spend time with her but she makes plans, I will check with her closer to the date and see if she is still going to see me, and then 2 days before she bails on me. She spends money left and right but If i ask her to go out with me she cant afford to spend 20 dollars. She asked to start over and try again….
    So we made plans for a sunday 3 weeks in advance, Saturday she tells me lets move it to monday… I am in online school for my BA and looking for a new job, so I forgot about Monday, I am a planner so I was busy monday with school. she tells me I forgot about her in the middle of the day…so she forget herself then too. we postpone it to Thursday… I checked in with her on Wednesday and she tells me she cant cause she cant spend money and she is upset about her fight with her husband… What does that have to do with me!?… She tried to move it again to Friday or Saturday and I cant cause I’m babysitting. and I start my new job on Monday. I’m done accommodating her behavior and I’m tired of my wants not being important to her.


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